Journal Entries
Iām combining yesterday and today into one post because, honestly, I didnāt have it in me to show up yesterday. I popped on briefly for the challenge, but even that felt like a stretch. After finding out what I did on Fatherās Day, Iāve just been processing a lot emotionally.
Itās not my situation to control itās completely out of my hands. But itās devastating. And the hardest part is knowing thereās absolutely nothing I can do to fix it. So Iāve been letting myself feel the sadness instead of pushing it away. Thatās what being healthy really means sometimes letting yourself sit in the truth without rushing to escape it.
On the 16th, I kept to myself most of the day. Later on, I needed fresh air and movement, so I took my daughter and granddaughter to the park. Walking the park is my thing. I used to love running it too, but I canāt do that anymore with pelvic congestion syndrome it just makes everything worse. I am a squat addict though so I always find a way to sneak those in daily. Movement still gives me so much life, even on heavy days.
Today, the 17th, was much more chill. Itās been hot, so we went to the library to cool off and I picked up two new books. Iām still reading two others now both self-growth books, which are totally my thing outside of history. I just love anything that helps with healing, reflection, or mental clarity also designs and gardens.
While we were at the library, my granddaughter started having a sore throat. And now my daughter isnāt feeling the best either. Thatās just life with germs especially invisible ones. She mentioned a person was sick, so itās not surprising. Iām really hoping I donāt get it, though. My immune system is not the strongest.
So, today felt very similar to yesterday emotionally. Heavy, reflective, a little foggy. But Iām trying to just push forward, hold space, pray, and send all the love I can to the people going through really hard things. Even if I canāt fix it, I can still love deeply. Thatās something.
We did buy my granddaughter a new bathing suit and pool toys for when she feels better no way sheās going out in this heat not feeling well. Hopefully itās just a cold. Kids bounce back fast, so weāll see what tomorrow brings.
Iām off to read now and head to bed early. Sending good vibes to everyone who showed up for the movement challenge today. Weāre so close to the end but honestly, Iām not stopping after this one I walk daily. And yes, Iāve already got ideas brewing for round two
Goodnight, friends. š