Journal Entries
April 4, 2025
Today was just one of those days. The kind where everything seems to go wrong one thing after another, like the universe hit a domino and let it all fall. I really just wanted a good day, something simple and calm, but instead I got chaos and frustration from every angle.
When you live with chronic illness, just getting places or doing everyday things already takes so much out of you. So when life starts piling on extra stress, it feels incredibly defeating. Days like this make me want to shut down and say nothing not because I don't have feelings, but because I donāt always know how to put them into words. And honestly, sometimes it feels like no oneās really listening anyway.
I know I have a very small circle of people who truly care, and Iām grateful for them. Iād rather have a few real ones than a crowd of fake. Iām just done pretending, pretending Iām okay, pretending things donāt bother me, pretending life is easier than it is. Thatās not how I want to live. My truth matters, even on the messy days.
But tonight did take a turn. A big surprise for my kidās birthday's came through totally unexpected and it gave me one of those rare moments of joy that Iāll hold onto. A whole good day might not be a thing in my world, but Iāll take a good moment whenever it shows up.
Now Iām winding down with my show and my cats, letting the heaviness of the day fade out a bit. All I can do is hope tomorrow is better, because nothing is guaranteed.
If youāre struggling too, I hope you find peace tonight. Being emotionally intelligent doesnāt mean we donāt feel deeply it means we honor those feelings and keep showing up anyway.
With love,
Trish